The past few weeks have been bittersweet for my family.  Two Fridays ago, my sweet grandma passed away.  And what a legacy she left!  She died at 92, having raised five boys, having traveled all over with my grandpa spreading the Gospel, and having read the Bible through more times than seems humanly possible.

It’s such an odd mix of feelings.  Weeping one moment and rejoicing the next.  My grandma lived a life poured out.  She spent her entire life seeking after God.  She gave Him her very best – whether it be through raising five rowdy boys (all of which have been involved in the ministry), through cooking for hungry students at Bible college, through attending church every single time the doors were open, or through being the definition of “helpmeet” to my grandpa.

She was a teeny tiny lady – at the end of her life she weighed less than a hundred pounds.  But her spirit was anything but teeny tiny.  She was known for always having a huge smile on her face and for being one of the most stubborn and strong women around.

I have no doubt she’s skipping around heaven right now, making her trademark “oooooh!” face as she delights in the beauty surrounding her.  I have no doubt that God said “well done, my good and faithful servant.”  I have no doubt that if she could speak to us today, she would encourage us that heaven is better than even our wildest dreams.

But I still miss her.  I still feel sorry for myself when I realize I won’t be buying her any more word search books.  Or that she won’t be grabbing my hands with her teensy soft ones as soon as I sit down to talk to her.  She held my hands the entire conversation, as if she were relishing each moment.

I miss her, but I can rest assured that I’ll see her someday.  Until then, I’m not going to let her testimony fade away.  I’m not going to forget the lessons I learned from her.  I hope to be a servant like she was.  Always willing to love and help and feed and clothe and bless and care for others.   I hope to joy in the simple things in life like she did.  She made every person around her feel like they were her best friend.  She smiled even when she was in pain.  She had a dedicated prayer life.  She raised her hands in church although the very act often wore her out.  She kept her Bible close by even when she could no longer read the words.  She hid chocolate in her Kleenex box, but she would always share it if you looked hungry.  She lavished love on her family members, even when she really didn’t have the money to be lavishing.  When the front door on our trailer would no longer shut, she bought us a new front door, even though hers would only shut if you pushed it a certain way.  She lived her entire life putting others before herself.  She was a Godly woman.  A servant.  A worshipper.  A wonderful, wonderful Grandma.


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11 Responses to My Grandma

  1. Deb Gill says:

    This is beautiful Whit! Thank you for sharing about our precious Grandma. Love you!!!

  2. Sarah Ollis says:

    Whitney, I am so sorry for your loss. I have been praying for you and your family. Even though I only got the chance to care for your grandma for a short amount of time, I absolutely fell in love with her. Her smile could light up a room! She had such a sweet spirit and loved to talk about the Lord. It makes me so happy to know that she is in a place with no more pain or suffering.

    Sarah Ollis
    (Sis. Granny’s great-granddaughter)

  3. Heather Clark says:

    Thanks so much for writing this Whitney. There was so much about Grandma that most people didn’t know, the one thing I remember being how she never seemed to forget anyone she met. Even if she only met someone once, if she thought they needed prayer, they were on her list. Watching her strength and sense of humor raising those boys has given me hope that I’ll survive raising mine. It was wonderful seeing you and the rest of the family and I know she would have enjoyed all the fellowship. And by the way, you remind me of her more and more. ;) Love ya cousin!

  4. Amanda says:

    Very well said. We love you all.

  5. Gillian says:

    Oh Whitney, I’m so sorry for your loss! But what a beautiful tribute to your grandmother. She sounds like an incredible woman.

  6. audrey gray says:

    Truly a blessing!